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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Day 1410

Last evening i went for a movie. Shahid - So many times you have Hindi movies which dont get enough publicity , is made on a shoestring budget compared to the crap that is being churned out every weel, released in limited theatres and one hopes it works through word of mouth. Shahid is one such movie. Based on the real life incidences of Slained criminal lawyer, Shahid Azmi. This is a very well made film and Rajkumar Yadav has given a standout performance. Very likely that he will get a bunch of best actor awards for this one. PS - Did anyone else also feel that Yadav looks and acts like Jon Cryer ? :-)
So many times in the last few months, i have gone out, mostly alone. For Dinners, travels, lunches, Movies and even shopping. I see many people come with their families, girlfriends, wives, husbands, boyfriends, friends in general, children etc. So when i see myself alone, i will admit(Since i am a human) that it feels sad. Sad because its a wonderful feeling to go out and do things you enjoy with company. If you think about it, your favorite memories, the most important moments in your life, were you alone ?
So for anyone who asks me, and i have been asked that a lot in the last few days, how do i go about doing things without company? How do i like doing that? To be honest, with some of my failed relationships in the past and knowing my current relationship status, i dont whole heartedly enjoy it as much as i would have enjoyed with company. Specifically that of a partner. A loved one. A girfriend/wife/fiancee.
But here's the thing, i am making the best of what i have. I have the guts to do things without the need of any conventional company and still enjoy. I can travel alone. I can dine alone. I can go for movies alone. I can stay home alone. I can go for a walk alone. I can shop alone. I can enjoy all these small moments and enjoy this wonderful life without necessarily have to be dependent on anyone.
Is that a best of feelings? Not really. But I will not say its a bad thing either. Atleast i am being happy. Atleast i have still travelled to so many different places and done so many things beating all normal conventions that people have made and yet the same people who want to do all this, and who are having company in the name of girlfriends/spouses/children etc have still not been able to do it. :)
So if you look at the broader scheme of things, who has got the shorter end of the stick where enjoying things are concerned ? :)

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