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Sunday, September 5, 2010

Day 269

And another Sunday goes. I slept by 3 am last night and by the time i woke, it was 9 AM. Early by any sunday standards. It was routine sunday. Online poker, sunday newspapers, afternoon nap and early dinner. Its going to be another long week. Thankfully i have Friday to Sunday off so i will be ensuring most of my work is completed by Thursday.  Today i came across an interesting quote -


I put my heart and my soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process.


This has, in more ways than one, been my state since the last 2 years. And i believe its more than my mind that i have lost :( :(
My worklife was never normal. But the pay, somehow, made up for it. But in this obsession of ensuring that i dont goof up at work and the over dedication, i, as the saying goes, won the battle but lost the war. I have learned a lot from the mistakes that i have made in these last few years. It would be near impossible task to rectify the mistakes (And none of them have been intentional) but i will try to ensure that, going forward, i will ensure that these mistakes dont happen again.
The next couple of weeks will be the holy week of prajushan. Prajushan is to Jainism, what lent is to Christianity and Ramzan is to Muslims, worldwide. It is the week when Jains, forgo all worldly pleasures for the period and devote themselves to their religion. People abstain from eating Green Vegetables, Onions, Garlic and anything that grows below the ground. A hardcore jain will fast for that period and will only consume boiled water. Its a penance which, they say, gets you salvation.
Somehow, i beg to differ. Because, one of the core-founders of Jainism, Vardhaman Mahavir, never spoke about all that. As a matter of fact, when he renounced all worldly pleasures and materialistic life, he just wandered about place to place, without clothes and just meditating and trying to reach closer to god.
He never spoke anything and whatever is being followed now, are only human interpretations.
If, people like Mahavir or Buddha or Jesus Christ for that matter, ever wanted anyone to follow was to ensure we live in harmony. We dont wish ill of anyone. We have the courage to forgive our enemies and make them our friends. All of them wanted us to do some major soul searching and come out of this whole, opium called religion.
Society formed by Human beings, however, poisons everyone's mind by misinterpreting the sayings of these guys.
Why am i writing all this ? I dont know. My guess is, i have been more spiritually inclined at the turn of the events that have happened in the last few months and somehow, i seek to find salvation in what i do.
Enough of Gyaan.
Now i shall sleep. Gotta get up at an unearthly hour of 1:30 AM to go to hell.
Cheers and Good night. 

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